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| Okay, sooooo, I haven`t been on for a while now. Um, I got new glasses. RAYBAN WAYFARERSSS x] I`m not wearing those every day, though. My eyes didn`t get any worse or better, so I`m going to switch around with my glasses. Mmm, today was Daniel JD`s WEDDING. Cutest wedding everrrr.<3 They`re so cute together. And since Daniel JD is pretty eccentric & strange, they were even cuuuuter because she was following his weirdness. Lmao.
Oh, I wore the dress I had bought from forever last time with mom for the first time (: I really like it. Aaand, I wore the heels Sophia gave me last year-ish for Jessica`s birthday party. They`re surprisingly comfortable.
Bleh, my glasses are too tight on me now, wth.
LALALA. I don`t have much to say.
"Sophia Lee" (9:34:18 PM): there's always a opposite in a relationship "Sophia Lee" (9:34:22 PM): and in ours "Sophia Lee" (9:34:25 PM): you're crazy define M I S A (9:34:26 PM): LOL "Sophia Lee" (9:34:27 PM): and i'm sensible define M I S A (9:34:29 PM): NO define M I S A (9:34:30 PM): YOU'RE NOT define M I S A (9:34:32 PM): THAT'S A FUCKING LIE
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| 총 맞은 것처럼 정신이 너무 없어.
웃음만 나와서 그냥 웃었어. 그냥 웃었어. 그냥......
허탈하게 웃으며 하나만 묻자 했어.
우리 왜 헤어져? 어떻게 헤어져?
어떻게 헤어져 어떻게?
구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐,
잡아보려해도 가슴을 막아도
손가락 사이로 빠져 나가.
심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플것 같진 않아.
어떻게 좀 해줘. 날 좀 치료해줘.
이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져.구멍난 가슴이......
어느세 눈물이 나도 모르게 흘러.
이러기 싫은데 정말 싫은데.
정말 싫은데 정말.
일어서는 널 따라 무작정 쫓아 갔어.
도망치듯 걷는 너의 뒤에서 너의 뒤에서 소리쳤어.
구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐,
잡아보려 해도 가슴을 막아도
손가락 사이로 빠져 나가.
심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플것 같진 않아.
어떡게 좀 해줘. 날 좀 치료해줘.
이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져.총맞은 것처럼......
정말 가슴이 너무 아파. 오
이렇게 아픈데 이렇게 아픈데
살 수가 있다는게 이상해.
어떡게 너를 잊어 내가,
그런거 나는 몰라 몰라.
가슴이 뻥뚤려 채울 수 없어서
죽을만큼 아프기만 해. 총맞은 것처럼......
I love this song. & I love the way she sings it.
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Jeff & I drawing (: Left is Jeff`s. I drew the girl on the right.
he changed the picture.
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| Yesterday, I slept @ six thirty. I`ve been really, really stressed about everything. Like, I`m the type of person who never gets stressed about school. As long as I pass, I`m good. But... Idk, AP`s changed me. Well, AP English changed me. Dx And on top of all that, my mom`s been making college seem like the major goal of my life. My goal is to be the best at whatever it is that I`m going to be (I`m already doubting fashion design.), and to do that I have to go to a good college so that I`ll have more chances at being the best. So the college I`m aiming for is Parsons. But my mom wants me to go to Stanford, Harvard, Yale, etc. when I know I don`t even have a chance. I keep telling her that after I graduate, I`m going to go to a CC & work on my portfolio for Parsons for two years. But she didn`t even listen. She kept going "No, you CAN MAKE IT !"
Don`t laugh. You`re probably thinking, WTF IS YOUR MOM THINKING. Augh. I`m thinking that too. :C What IS she thinking ? It`s not just that I can`t make it to those colleges, but I don`t WANT to go. I`ll go somewhere small & learn business for undergrad & go into fashion (maybe).
So... yeah. I`ve started to go through depression again. I`m losing my appetite. My mom all my favorite dishes, and I didn`t feel like eating anything. SHE MADE KALBI, AND I REFUSED. I thought I was crazy. So I ate one, but I really felt full. Dx
Anyways, yesterday I slept @ 6:30. And I guess my mom saw how stressed I must`ve been. I told her that I don`t think I`m going to pass AP English & since I`ve never taken a AP class before, I don`t know what happens to you after. And she said that it`s okay & that all she needed to know is that I tried my best. :C I didn`t feel better though. Cuhs I feel like a failure already. Um, yeah. So when I woke up today morning, I started crying & that`s like the biggest guilt trip that makes my mom trip around the world. And she said I could stay home & relax. I want to go to school, though.
Augh, she`s trying to feed me again, >:
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| x] System&misa on iScribble againnnn ! Click the image to see full viewwww !
Notice our MSN window. I drew a feminine Jeff & he drew me reading a book. And on the side, I`m playing TWEWY. WHEEEE !(:
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| I found a new love : SystemFraud.
click on the image to see full view.
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